terrential down pour. am i that good? do i need this attention. i have so much ceation to give but now i dont wish for organization please give me credit. myself is the only one to give to you to see this through. dont be selfish and think of yourself as being you. i bet you think this rant is about you. maybe but is mostly about me and my arrguments between myself. i got potential. somebody told me. thats a good idea

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i need one more life to breathe upon my chest. that is what everyone wihes for ./ i just dont understand. what do i want? what can i have? do i want the best of it? can i have it all? i wish that was true for you. seriously that was actually me. please tell me what i want from you. give me it. i just dont know what to do. i have everthing. everthing but. but butbutbutbutbut. but you know. if i take what i dont have then i lose everything. if i say what you want me to say then i lose everything. but at lease i have you. i lose a good month and lifetime of friendship. so tell me what to do. that is what i want. i wish i couldnt connect myself with people. now i dont have what i want. now i feel what i could have had. do you know how it feel to have something as great as immortality in your hands? then find only a day later that was fake. you know how that feels. do you know how it feels to have a void filled in your body. to be the happiest youve ever felt ever. so complete so relieved. it just takes one. one.one.one.one.one..........

now i feel. my numbness is gone. ive awaken to find everything to be. i wounder where i am. one friend of time. ten of kindness. one of truth. ten of lust. one that i see everyday. when i see myself i see some one. only one never more than fun of fun full nights. then i see someone comfortable with themself. and i wish i had that. that stuff i see in me someone wishes for me. is this true. do you want me? how when and where? why do i have to make everyone happy. why can i be a dirty man. corner rider. seat filler. leaf killer.

one more thing to tell myself give one chance to recover. nope no i can see feel me now. why do you and me. i cant breathe. breathing is so hard for me these days. take one step back. look at yourself. lying dying crying that sounded cool when i said it but hey. its nothing big.

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